Reflections

So much shit I did wrong, most of it I cannot correct anymore, I do not understand but it really is at night when I actually begin to think about all the things I have or have not done which I, only now the regret... Funny thi is, I actually use it to distract myself from the fact that everyone around me might as well be dead and that I can barely see anything in the dark (Yes people, I admit that I, Muhammad Zahid, do fear the dark) which then progresses to me making converstion with myself, followed by inter-self arguments, and then freaking myself out even more by wondering if I am actually alright up there where it counts... This normally results in lack of sleep which makes me doze off in class...maybe dozing is not the right word, more like having the remainder of my beauty sleep (as if it even affects my beauty in any way...I do not think I'm even supposed to be beautiful...) but amazingly, without many teachers notcing despite my seat being right up at the front...makes me feel invisible... Well, I'm getting bored so enough blogging...time to watch anime... (I'm watching "Hayate no Gotoku"...and Achmad, not all anime or manga is hent** so please F*** OFF!)